The final statement

‘I’m not going to tell you, because I know one thing: until your life gets into such a situation, no matter how I describe it, no matter how beautifully I speak about it using different slogans, it won’t reach anyone’.

Initially I didn’t want to speak at all. Firstly, I don’t want to make any excuses. Secondly, you know, I am a career serviceman, I have dedicated my whole life to military service. I went through all the military positions, starting from an ordinary soldier, ending with the commander of a unit, special forces. In 2008 I got a retirement pension, and at the age of 32 I was already a pensioner. At that time one year in the service counted as three years and nowhere in the CIS countries there were in these units the same scheme as one year as three years. The specifics of the unit were peacekeeping activities.

You know, during my military career in uniform I have been to, I’ve counted, 18 countries. I have taken part in missions in four countries—Bosnia, Kuwait, Kosovo… It doesn’t matter. You know, I’ve realized only one thing—I can’t tell people what I am feeling, what I have gone through, how your country treated mine, how they treated my home. How my wife was shot on the road in front of my eyes. How the liberators came to my house, took everything away, completely cleaned everything out, and how they imprisoned me for three years… This is the fourth year.

I’m not going to tell you, because I know one thing: until your life gets into such a situation, no matter how I describe it, no matter how beautifully I speak about it using different slogans, it won’t reach anyone. And God forbid that you feel it. God forbid that your relatives feel it, God forbid that your children and the elderly feel it.

But you know, as a citizen of my country, as an officer, and as a human being… I’m sure of one thing: I have a clear conscience, and I’m proud of it. Thanks for your attention.

Southern District Military Court, Rostov-on-Don, Russia

19 March 2025

Source: Mediazona

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